Goodbye baby

We had another doctor's appointment toay. It was supposed to be our first time to see the baby with ultrasound. Instead, there is only emptiness inside me.

As expected, I have had a natural termination of pregnancy. When the doctor is relaying the news to us, I must've seemed kind of cold because I didn't have much change in expression. I have had a day to adjust the news and today is just another person telling me the news that I have finally come to accept yesterday.


Last night, Jaime took me out to have dinner at Katherine's place. he wanted to take the sad news off my mind. Afterwards, we went to see the Pirates III. The strategy worked for a bit, for awhile, I almost did not remember that I had been pregnant. But as we waved our friends goodbye, I couldn't help but start feeling sad again. After I went home, I cried myself to sleep. Many questions, many guilts but we can only say goodbye to our baby...


Goodbye baby. Mami and bapi know that the time to meet you is not too far away. Mami needs to try again when she is healthy again...