我也不想再抱怨啦

对不起啦
这几个星期的部落格总是抱怨我的胃口不好 今天还是要再抱怨一次
昨天小Chamu已正式进入第十三周咯
这周四去看医生 可以再看看是否他长的又更高更壮了
我还是对食物感冒 妈妈说要吃味道重点的食物
我试了下 吃的时候的确好下咽些 但吃完了 肚子还是不好受
上礼拜又是一样
周六晚更变本加厉 开始吐了起来
我坐在床上哭 Jaime在地上擦

有些时侯实在是太辛苦了
我会不小心迁怒于小Chamu
搞得Jaime还得要安抚他 (对不起 妈咪真的不是故意生气的)
都已经第十三周了 书上都说应该会比较有胃口了
但我还是挑嘴挑得厉害 所有的料理都吃了一轮啦
仍然搞得胃口尽失 面临着随时无饭可吃的问题
对不起 我也不想再抱怨啦
但愿这周过后就只有吃太多的问题而没有吃不下的问题
P.S. 我很快就要原形毕露啦 还是没告诉我老板

Joys and Excitements

We finally broke the news to our family yesterday. Everyone is so excited about us expecting a new life in our family.
My dad is already committed to losing weight, quitting smoking (it's a forty-year-old habit), and doing more exercise! My mom is planning when she should come out to be our "cook" again. Jaime's family is equally excited, commenting on how fidgety little Chamu is. We read yesterday in the antenatal care book that actually babies move a lot early stage in the womb. Because now they are still quite small and there is a lot of room for them to "exercise". It's amazing that even though it has only been 8 weeks since conception, the embryo has already grown more than 30,000 times larger to form the fetus!
Our close friends are also very excited about this news! For some reason, perhaps it's the joys and excitements, I do not feel as nauseous today. But then it triggers my worry on Chamu. I started to wonder whether he is growing fine and, if yes, how come I don't feel as bad today? I guess I'm already thinking like a mother and from this moment on, I will only have endless worries (like our parents who never stop worrying for us) whether they are valid or not.
My last worry is somewhat related to Chamu but not quite: I wonder when and how I should break the news to my bosses. Perhaps I will take the advice of my girlfriends and just let my belly grow until the bosses can no longer ignore...*sigh* despite years of fighting for equal treatment at work, somethings will never be equal...

10 Weeks and Sneak Preview

Today we get to see little Chamu for the second time. Even though it has only been two weeks, it felt like a long time to me. At the Doctor's, the nurse helped me weigh myself. 58.6KG! 1.5KG less than two weeks ago. The Doctor came in and asked if I have had difficulty in eating. Of course I did. She told me that I have to just eat whatever I can to maintain my weight (even if it means chocolate milk shake). I nodded but was thinking that it is a tall order since nothing seems to interests me when it comes to food.

Then the ultrasound session begin. Little Chamu has almost doubled his size since two weeks ago. Now measured at 3.2 cm long, he is 10 weeks and 1 day old. He is starting to looking like a baby with definite shape of head, body, arms, legs and even some early formation of fingers and toes. You can also see his spine. It is such an amazing sight. This baby is strong and healthy and that's why his mother is nauseous everyday...

The doctor tells me only two more weeks of this "all-day sickness" and in two weeks, we would come back again and should be able to see a even bigger baby with fingers and toes. I simply cannot wait.

We shared this wonderful news with some of our closest friends already because we just couldn't hold it any longer. Even though technically we should wait until the first trimester is over. Jaime spent the whole night trying to upload the ultrasound session to YouTube so we can announce this news to our family! But he couldn't get it to work somehow. I guess the news will need to be kept for one more day because we do want our love ones to meet Chamu too. He is truly a cutie!

See it for yourself

Double Click to go to YouTube, where you can blow it up to full screen!

Busted

Got busted last week by KitKat. She asked me why I have been wearing glasses recently and I told her that I left my contact lenses in Taipei. She was very quick and asked me how I went diving in Sipadan. Well, I did not go diving in Sipadan because little Chamu is inside me. I fumbled a bit and tried to make up something but was quickly busted. I finally told her that I was sleeping the whole time because I was too tired. Sorry sorry, I know I have told the same lie to many of my friends. But we did go to Sipadan (since we were too cheap to cancel) and I just did not dive. Instead, little Chamu was making me sleepy so I slept for 12 hours a day. The rest of time I was struggling with what to eat because everything seems to not right to little Chamu.

Jaime is amazingly patient since he is the only person that I can complain to. He is also the only person who is a victim of my weird appetite. I am hoping by the end of October, this difficulty will be over...

Wufr is planning her big day. Originally I had suggested to her that May 2008 would be a great time but the other day I had to retract given that I will not be able to go anywhere from April to July now... I certainly want to be there on her big day (so she gets to be a godzilla bride to me as I was to her on my wedding) but it now seems quite a remote possibility unless she significantly delays her plan or she somehow pulls it off by March. Auntie Wufr, little Chamu will have to make it up to you somehow loh...

One more week

Chamu is now 9 weeks and 1 day. By this time next week, we will be able to announce this wonderful news to our family and friends (and also get to see him again on ultrasound). The ultrasound session last week was unfortunately not recorded properly so we cannot really see the powerful heart of little Chamu again on our computer. Next Monday, his heart should be even stronger. Nothing has changed much in our life. Other than the fact that I'm slowly growing out of my clothes. I have become a bit anti-social lately because I am getting bigger and cannot explain to people yet why. My favorite pass time has become sitting in front of the TV and flipping channels.
It's embarrassing but I guess my body is expanding faster than other mother-to-be's. I now have to wear my pants without buttoning them up. I had to go get maternity clothes last Saturday even though my baby does not even weigh two ounces. I am still constantly tired. I need to sleep a lot otherwise I get cranky. The worst thing is still my problem with the appetite. Jaime is frustrated with the fact that I can never tell him what I want to eat and yet frown at any food he brings to me. I am also very frustrating as well dealing with my constantly hungry stomach and not being able to find anything that suits my need. According to the books we have, I should be able to eat normal again in 2 weeks when little Chamu enters into his second trimester.
Even without revealing the news about little Chamu to my dad, he has already agreed to start a diet and to try to quit smoking... Next week he will have one more reason to get into a healthier lifestyle! :)

Almost 9 weeks

This week is a bit better for me than last week.

For one, I am back in Hong Kong so there are more choices for food. Little Chamu is still the pickiest person when it comes to food. He misleads me sometimes to signal cravings for certain food, but when Jaime actually finds me the food, he usually has already changed his mind again.

I still try to eat as much as I can but often times I find myself on the verge of barfing...

Papi tells little Chamu not to make Mami sick but I guess he just has to do his "stuff" in order to grow.

Last night I had a sudden craving for Korean food. We went and ordered a whole table of Korean and Chamu decided he will only eat Kimchee Jeege with rice. Tonight we had a dinner appointment with EGT and Chamu told me he had a craving for Japanese but on the way home, he was too shaken up by the bus ride and decided he wants to make my stomach tumble instead.

Well I guess the only benefit out of this is that the doctor won't nag on my weight increase at the next check up. Already I have passed the 60KG mark which is the heaviest I have ever been! and Chamu only accounts for full 2 ounces of it. The rest of the weight has shown up on my boobs, butt, and belly... Time for my body to start using its reserved fat...


P.S. We figured out that little Chamu should have been little "Lalu" instead since he was M.I.T. at the famous Sun Moon Lake... hehehe

Chamu's Debut

Today is the first time we are going for the check up. Quite nervous. Prior to this, pregnancy seems to just mean no appetite mixed with constant hunger, hating the usual food I love, endless tiredness, tighter pants and shirts, etc.

We waited for one hour and half since the Doctor had to postpone most of her meetings due to an emergency. Doctor came in and she was very nice and made me a lot more relaxed. We started the ultrasound session and very soon we saw our Chamu for the first time!

He is bigger than we thought he would be (at 1.7 cm). According to our calculation, he should be around 7-week old but based on his length, the ultrasound determined that he is 8 weeks and one day big! We can see the shape of his head and body and the most amazing thing is his beating heart! small but strong and follows a steady rhythm. I was speechless and couldn't believe this thing, this being, this LIFE, is actually growing inside of me. Jaime and I were ecstatic. Even though Chamu still looks like an alien being in his current form, he is already the cutest baby we have ever met!!!

P.S. I have decided to use "he" for Chamu for my convenience but Chamu is not confirmed to be a boy. Mystery will only be solved on May-18-2008.

All Day Sickness

Morning sickness is not a correct description of the symptoms that one goes through during early pregnancy. In my case, it is "all day sickness". When we booked the Sipadan trip for the October holidays, we had no expectation that I would be pregnant. After we found out, we decided to proceed with the trip since everything is paid for and non-refundable. Some quick research on the Internet tells us that diving during pregnancy is not a possibility so I had brought with me four books and some DVDs to hope to kill time when Jaime is out diving.


The journey here was long. We had to take two flights, one-hour car ride, and then another 40-minute of bumpy boat ride. Under normal circumstances, I would have been looking forward to the diving since the harder it is to get to the dive site, the more preserved the site is likely to be (and therefore more spectacular it will be). However, this is not normal circumstances. I was nauseous and at the same time worried that the bumpy boat ride was going to cause harm to my baby. I started to think how our 'cheapness' (i.e. wanting to proceed with the trip just because it is not refundable) will cause us eternal regrets. Jaime had to ask the driver to slow down twice before I got comfortable.


Once we are on the island, I soon realized that this may not be the best place to be when you are a mother-to-be. My little Chamu is growing with hormones that make me dislike all kinds of food. Here unfortunately, I don't have much choice in what I get to eat. Little Chamu does not like greasy food, spicy food, coffee, tea, sugary food, all kinds of food. So I am constantly battling with hunger and nausea and sleepiness. I force myself to eat. Afterall, I have a little baby inside of me that is hungry for nutritions. Even though I have layers of preserved fat around my belly, fat alone is not good enough. It is such a torture when you want to eat and need to eat but cannot eat. Every smell seems to make me sick, smell of gasoline, smell of ocean, smell of food... I can only hope that this period will be over soon and in a couple weeks that I can go back to eating whatever I want and need to eat... Until then Chamu hopefully will grow well consuming my previously built fat reserve....