All Day Sickness

Morning sickness is not a correct description of the symptoms that one goes through during early pregnancy. In my case, it is "all day sickness". When we booked the Sipadan trip for the October holidays, we had no expectation that I would be pregnant. After we found out, we decided to proceed with the trip since everything is paid for and non-refundable. Some quick research on the Internet tells us that diving during pregnancy is not a possibility so I had brought with me four books and some DVDs to hope to kill time when Jaime is out diving.


The journey here was long. We had to take two flights, one-hour car ride, and then another 40-minute of bumpy boat ride. Under normal circumstances, I would have been looking forward to the diving since the harder it is to get to the dive site, the more preserved the site is likely to be (and therefore more spectacular it will be). However, this is not normal circumstances. I was nauseous and at the same time worried that the bumpy boat ride was going to cause harm to my baby. I started to think how our 'cheapness' (i.e. wanting to proceed with the trip just because it is not refundable) will cause us eternal regrets. Jaime had to ask the driver to slow down twice before I got comfortable.


Once we are on the island, I soon realized that this may not be the best place to be when you are a mother-to-be. My little Chamu is growing with hormones that make me dislike all kinds of food. Here unfortunately, I don't have much choice in what I get to eat. Little Chamu does not like greasy food, spicy food, coffee, tea, sugary food, all kinds of food. So I am constantly battling with hunger and nausea and sleepiness. I force myself to eat. Afterall, I have a little baby inside of me that is hungry for nutritions. Even though I have layers of preserved fat around my belly, fat alone is not good enough. It is such a torture when you want to eat and need to eat but cannot eat. Every smell seems to make me sick, smell of gasoline, smell of ocean, smell of food... I can only hope that this period will be over soon and in a couple weeks that I can go back to eating whatever I want and need to eat... Until then Chamu hopefully will grow well consuming my previously built fat reserve....