Helpless JoJomami

Finally, we are counting down to Year 2008. Last six weeks have been extremely busy for JoJomami. She started to recover from her "all-day sickness" and ceased worrying about people finding out that she is pregnant (her belly can no longer be sucked in). She has been working really hard. Yearend budgeting, closing, 2008 strategy, personnel issues, etc. She quite enjoys being kept busy at work and being able to really do work again. When she comes home though, she becomes one helpless little girl.
The hands so swiftly and accurately type emails and handle documents all day long suddenly become paralyzed whenever kitchen knifes, pots and pans become involved. She is one housework disaster. Yesterday she tried to do laundry since she has to pack for the trip going to Hawaii today. She so proudly pushed all the right buttons and poured detergent (instead of faric softener) into the right slot but only to be shocked to see the white clothes turned ever more gray after the wash (she had forgotten to separate whites from colors). She was panicking when it comes to packing despite the fact she is such a well travelled globetrotter who used to travel 5 days a week in her previous life on Wall Street (Her solution previously was never to unpack).
The mind that makes important decisions throughout her working day just cannot help but only focuses on and worries about the fact she hasn't felt fetal movements yet even though she is already in her 19th week of pregnancy. She feels defeated at times (a feeling she rarely experiences at work) because she is not sure if she will ever be fit to be a good mother (after realizing the fact she will never be a good housewife -- well, at least not the traditional kind of housewife one expects). She can only try to improve one thing at a time. The other day, under generous trust and close supervision of her good friend Christy, she was able to overcome her fears of newborns and held Nathan in her arms (she has not done that since she last held her brother 26 years ago). At least that's some progress...